Found a website that i can reconnect with my chinese classmates from elementary school, should I add them? So much hate building up within me lately, negativity haunts me to no end. I know its useless for me to linger on the past and it is my no means productive. But I just can't let go, what can i do to change this? I tried... and i tried harder.... I need something to calm my anger and self blame. What is this "thing?"

我真的不想回学校，上一学期的经历让我已经没办法。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

2B will start in T-2 1/2 weeks, I will not fail this time. 揾食艰难，尤其是现在更是难上加难。我不甘心做一个平庸的人，希望我留的血和汗水总有一天可以得到回报。

I need to hang out with highschool buddies during the summer. Havent seen them in a while now, I miss them.

After seeing some pretty grusome tragedy that has happened to some ppl, I realized that what i am going through is nothing. There is still hope, dont give up. 加油, 船到桥头自有路，柳暗花明又一村。

Workout of a cheapskate

This is for people who are too cheap to buy weights or pay membership for gyms, here is wat you do:

If you have one of those big blue buckets at home that you rinse your mop in, fill it with water and start doing bicep curls, deltoids or watever u feel like doing. Adjust the weight by changing the water inside. Wrap towels around the handle if its is slipping.

On another note, Im going to start doing finger pushups so I can get a stronger grip when giving handshakes to employers =D.

I really hate working 7 days a week right now,can't believe Im saying this but Im actually starting to miss school. I gotta do some retail therapy soon with my pitiful timmys paycheck in order to relieve my stress. ( lascoste shoes????)

*Conversation I had today with cute timmys co-worker who just turned 17 (no im not trying to hit on her)

her: how old are u
me: guess
her: i unno, gr12?
me: im in second year uni
her: (GASP)
me: i look old now cuz i havent shaved
her: what are u talking about, theres no hair
me:( WTF............ i will show her what a hairy chinaman looks like one day)

spring is hereeee

Been getting awsome weather this week ( my bday changes everything =D ). Today I had my first outdoor session this year, even though it only lasted for 15 minutes. Feels good to be in the air again. I know there r gonna be a few more snow storms before the REAL warm weather hits. This year, I hope the bad things will pass away just like the winter. I want A REAL PAYING CO-OP JOOOB and BETTER GRADES!!!!!!!!!! After that, maybe i can scout out on the lang luis and dominate them all MUHAHAHAHAHAHHA. Oh yea and how can i forget, i need to learn how to drive. I ve been taking the public transit for tooooo long and i absolutely facking HATE IT. Hopefully, all my wishes will come true this summer.

* tricking makes me smell, i need to go take a shower